In my spirit I am being urged I believe by the Holy Spirit to share my testimony about being shown by Him that divorce and remarriage is adultery no matter what my opinion was.
As most know, I was married very young. I turned 17 in September was married the following month. People used to sell us the Barbie and Ken that we were do good together and appeared to be very happy. Well, that marriage ended up in a divorce and I married another man. He had been married twice before me, that too ended up in a divorce. I married again this man had never been married, and 2 weeks after saying our bows I was born again. That marriage ended in a divorce as well. Then I married a man that I had great fear of, we did marry in a Church but only a few people was invited. My mom was the only one from my family, then his momma and his sister and her family that was pretty much it and it took place after a church service on a Sunday morning. Pastor Trevino gave me the marriage license to mail and the very moment he put that in my hand, I knew deep within it was never going to the mail. It did not it went through the fire instead, as I did as well. Then a few years later I married one last time, less that 2 years later we divorced.
That is the condensed version of my marriages. I used to say, obviously I was the problem because I was the common denominator…God has clearly shown me that He never looked at the 2-5 as a marriage but that is jumping ahead.
As I stated I was born again in 2000 during my third marriage. I do not doubt thus, but something was wrong and I never under what exactly. I loved him dearly thst is a fact and I will not lie concerning it. He was and still is an amazing man and I pray for him often. After being born again, I hadcsuch a hunger and thirst to know God to truly know Him. I had no one really to talk to, but I did attend church where my aunt/cousin taught. She would teach on Tuesdays and it was all about pre tribulation rapture and dispensationalism. She would come over to my home and talk with me and I really enjoyed it very much. She bought me a Strongs Concordance which thrilled me so much! Then one day her and her husband had came over and I asked a question and her response brought out a prideful offense in which I never knew I had. She said, “I am not sure how to snswer that because you won’t understand it.” In my mind what I heard was, “I have to dumb it down for you to understsnd”. I cried so hard and was deeply hurt by this. I prayed and prayed asking God to help me learn to teach me how to rightly divide His Word and understand it as I should. I had a dream and in that dream I heard a voice speak and he said, “piece it all together like a puzzle it will fit perfectly “. The following morning with my Bible in hand and pen and paper, “before I had a computer and arthritis lol) I opened up the Bible to Isaiah and wrote one verse down then I began to run reference from thst one verse and wtite every single verse down that the references gave, until I ended right back to the first verse in Isaiah!! I was overjoyed and so excited to say the least.
Well, during this time strange bad things started happening to me and they were unsettling to say the least. I began to experience sleep paralysis and things I will not go into hear. It was horrible! I finally told my momma what was happening and she had experienced this herself and said to pray and anoint the house. Little did I know it was not the house but it was the sin I was living in that allowed the enemy to trouble me.
Now fast forward to 2017.
In October 2016 I was diagnosed with breast cancer. The slippery slope of hell, bound to the lake of fire I was on and it appeared I would get there sooner rather than later. My best friend/momma/oldest sister/teacher/confidant/cheerleader was found dead on her floor by her oldest daughter. I was smoking a joint and drinking a beer when I got the call from Sis, I remember it as if it was yesterday. A friend named Rob was there and when Sis spoke those words, “Pammie, Shar has died” I called her a liar at first then it sunk it I literally threw the phone in a fit of lunacy barely missing Robs head. Cancer did not send me to my knees but it was the beginning process of humbling me, when my sister died, the only person that I have ever known to honestly love me on this earth unconditionally, that was the final moment thst broke me. For days I walked around in an absolute daze, my head was almost bald from chemotherapy and when that had begun to happen my Sharlene was still alive and that was the only time I cried about cancer…because I was going bald! After she died I no longer cared, nothing meant anything to me. I began to isolate myself in my room, curl up in my recliner as a small child would do in their daddy’s lap. I would pretend that Jesus was holding me, I hurt so deep. One day I cried out to Him and asked if it was not to late to please forgive me, He forgave me that instant. It was not as it was when I was born again, this time I had to literally grasp ahold of Him through faith.
Well a few months went by then my momma died in September 2017, but by God’s grace He had restored our broken relationship before He took her.
Then He told me it was time to move. I said to Him, “Father if this is really you telling me to move then you must provide the place and the means I have no money or anywhere to go “. I had called Sis and asked ifcI could move in with her in mom house, she said no, so I just thought well then this is not from God.
Then out of the blue my 5th husband called me and offered me a room to rent if I wanted to come home to Stockbridge! The next day in the mail was back pay from disability I was approved andcdud not know it! God provided the means and the place for his purpose. So I moved and I have been renting from Richard since November 2017 till now.
I began to pray and ask the LORD if I am married in His eyes and if so to who? To my first husband? Or to my third husband? Or to my last? Or am I not married at all and free to remarry? That prayer began in 2017.
After a couple of years I tried to figure it out myself by what I read into the Bible to what I thought it said. So, my first husband was an admitted fornication, adulterer, molester, accused rapist and pedophile so obviously I am not married to him in God’s eyes. My second husband had been married twice, he was verbally abusive and not faithful so he was out of the question. My third husband was a good, faithful man and never married before me and during that marriage I was born again so I thought possibly I was still married to him in God’s. Then I thought about number 4, he was verbally, physically abusive beat me so bad I was unrecognizable and left me for dead so he could not be my husband. Then my 5th, was I still married to him because he was the last one?
I had no idea at all and kinda just dropped it. Then in June of 2020 which seemed completely out of left field the Holy Spirit began to reveal to me in my dream at first just by speaking scriptures the Truth.
He took me to Matthew 5, 19, Mark, and Luke, then to Romans and 1 Corinthians. I searched and searched and cried and prayed. Honestly, I searched to prove Him wrong! I am being straight forward on that.
He showed me that when Jesus was addressing the Pharisees concerning divorce and remarriage that when He spoke of fornication and in the same verse mentioned adultery that, He was referring to two different sexual sins. Fornication in Matthew 5 and 19 is speaking about a sexual act during the betrothal period. Then He sent me to where Joseph found out Mary was pregnant. Joseph was going to DIVORCE Mary privately, but they were not married yet! Then it says his wife! As He opened this up to me the scales began to fall from my eyes. In the Jewish law/tradition the betrothal was a binding contract before the marriage ceremony ever took place, BEFORE GOD HAD MADE THE TWO ONE FLESH! I was a bit dumbstruck honestly and still wanting to deny it. Going back to Matthew where Jesus was teaching He even says that it is not good to make a vow and not keep it. Then I began to search indepth even more. I found out that when Joshua and the leaders made a covenant with a group of people they were supposed to overcome but because of the deception Joshua and the leaders made a Covenant with them which was under false pretenses. When Israel found out they were angry and wanted to kill them but GOD FORBID IT..WHY? because they made a covenant before God with these people, false pretenses or not God held them to it. Many years later king Saul broke that covenant and God withheld the rain for Isarel David enquired why and God told him and then instructed him to go to the people and ask what they wanted for recompense! They did not want money they wanted I believe 7 of king Saul’s sons killed and hung up! After that was accomplished God sent rain. That is how strong God takes a covenant how much more do you think He takes the marriage covenant?
Then I read that if you divorce you are not to remarry but be reconciled with your spouse. He never refers to them as ex but always as your wife or your husband even though a divorce had taken place. Apostle Paul clearly tells us that it is not him saying this but God. Then I was sent to Malachi and I knew exactly who was my husband was in God’s eyes, even though we were sinners when we married and sinners when we divorced and I was sickened. My first husband is my spouse. Jesus said in the Gospels this teaching was to WHOSOEVER which means all of mankind, not just saint but sinner alike. When we say our vows on earth to one another and before God Almighty it is at that very moment what God has joined together let not man put asunder and a piece of paper does not separate what God Himself has joined as One FLESH that is absolutely impossible and He tells us it is only death that separates and allows for a remarriage nothing else. Fornication taken in context in Matthew is not adultery it is sexual misconduct during the betrothal period. People try and use Paul’s writings and say that he gave an exception, no he did not if he had he would be adding on to the LORDs words where Jesus clearly said, “But I SAY UNTO YOU”! Jesus even saidctgatvif a man divorces hisxwife he causes her to commit adultery! Why? Because she had no other way to provide a living for herself other than remarriage, and yet Jesus says still she would be COMMITTING ADULTERY!
The Holy Scriptures are clear and I have in many posts given you the scriptures you must yourself go to the Word of God and search them as I did! Not one thing I was shown by the Holy Spirit cannot be found in the Holy Scriptures notvone, for He is the Inspiration of the Holy Scriptures He moved upon man to pen them!
So, even though my first husband probably was not God’s choice for me, I never asked Him who to marry, but since I married who I desired He made him and I one flesh and I am now bound until death.
This is not any kind of private interpretation this is the Word of God and no feelings or emotions will change the Truth.
God showed me people think so little of this Truth that He joins two people and makes them One, that believe a corruptible piece of paper can literally separate what He has joined together. And it is like they believe a crowbar will open a door He shuts….people say the love Him, they say they obey Him, but at the end of the day we (including myself) cherry pick what we like and what we do not like we will twist it and pervert it to fit our own interpretation.
Bottomline we must repent (turn from our sin) or perish.
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